Last March in 2017, I had been on an intimate journey with the Holy Spirit, Jesus and I got to hang out every day pretty much every moment it felt like. To be honest it was the time in my life when I felt "perfect love that casts out fear" the strongest or the most peaceful in my soul and heart.
I knew in my spirit that after a month (by the end of March) that some miracle was going to happen. I was asking the Lord what to do about money as I only had about $12 in my account left. I heard Him previously that I was going to work at a bar and do really well. So after 2 weeks went by I felt it was time to job search. But the thing was, no bars would hire me, as if the door wasn't opening. So I let go of what I thought God told me, and starting looking around and started at a grocery store. I walked up to the manager at customer service and asked her if they were hiring, she instantly said "No". So i walked out of the door and felt peace that was not the place to go work at.
Next I walked into a Waffle House in Westly Chapel FL, and they said that some full time gal just quit and I should apply. So I did and got in instantly. Phew! I was very careful how I spent my money until my first paycheck. I survived off of McDonalds dollar menu and $1 coffees with refills :D
As the weeks went by, I worked as much as I could and even a few over night shifts. My free time was spent roller blading in the trails and picking up garbage in the nice part of town and watching all the beautiful houses. I had never seed so many squirrels too by the way. I know back home in MN they have a lot but I noticed them everywhere. I loved it!
But one day taking a stroll with God, It took me by surprise as it was out of the blue, but He randomly told me that "He was going to give me a house with no mortgage and my name on it". So i was so shocked as that could never of been me telling myself that. God loves to bless us, so it wouldn't be the devil either. So i told Him what I wanted it to look like lol ha ha.
The time came that the month of March was over, and I was waiting for this miracle to happen. I thought my old friend would witness a miracle or Jesus would appear before him or something. But the miracle the Holy Spirit brought to my attention that we conquered the devil in the spirit world. The devil kept pestering me in the past and we defeated him that month like Jesus did on the cross. And I had such peace and a message from the Holy Spirit that the door to this guy i thought was for me was closed. God told me that he wasn't the one for me, but "For every door I close I will open the right one". If i had known that earlier I wouldn't of gone through so much trouble of trying so hard to make it work with this guy who didn't want to be with me after awhile. But God knew my heart was to obey His word and be a good seed planter and love those He puts in front of me.
The time came, I went back to MN to my family farm. Worked all summer on the farm pruning trees and got a job at a "local bar" lol funny God, just what you told me back in FL. I ended up being blessed there by the love and humility of the people there and a year later got my new car paid off in 1.5 years instead of a 6 year term. Praise God!!!
I also had been praying so much to God about what to look for in a man that He had chosen for me. I didn't want to end up with someone that wasn't meant for me. So I asked Him to close every door that isn't from Him and open the ones from Him as I look and search for my spiritual partner/husband.
I almost went on a date with a farm guy, but he stood me up, so i took that as a "No" from God, and got a message from the Holy Spirit that he wasn't the one either. So i waited for a man with a heart like Jesus. Then randomly one summer nite in July, it was a classic car in on a Friday. I was working the outside bar and one of the beer kegs went empty. So I had to run inside to get a new one, but they were too heavy for me to lift and we were busy outside. I look out the door and thought i saw a friend who could lift it, but he was already down the street. But in front of me was this guy I had talked to a little, but not too much, but i asked him anyways as I needed help. He happily said yes to carrying this heavy beer keg with his big muscles in exchange for a free beer I would get him. I said thank you and he left so i could get back to my work after I gave him his free beer.
The nite was almost over and people were still socializing and having a good time looking at their cars, and I was slowly putting stuff away and socializing too. I ran into this big muscled guy, and ok his name is Mitch Wilson. Not a loud guy but more in the background and likes to listen and observe. So Mitch showed me his classic car and we actually talked more and knew he was interested and liking my shorts. I said bye and he said "your cute Tracy". So i blushed and walked away.
When I got home that nite he messaged me on Facebook and we started chatting. He seemed interesting and thought i would be open to getting to know him. A week later he asked me on a date and he picked me up in his classic car that smelt and reminded me so much of my dads old mustang. He even opened the car door for me, which no one had ever done for me before. We went to Turner Hall in New Ulm and he pulled the seat out for me too! I was shocked i thought it was for him ha ha but he said it was for me. lol. Our date went really well. I told him about me being a frutiarian and we laughed a lot. It helped having a Captain Diet 7up, as I was nervous.
The ride home was peaceful, I leaned on the front of the dash and enjoyed the peaceful silence and the view of the night sky. He dropped me off and hugged goodbye. I was getting a feeling it was the last time we would hang out. Dang! I had fun but ok God you lead I follow.
He kept messaging me every morning and we'd talk throughout the day and I was getting frustrated and thought he wasn't interested. So i bluntantly asked him and he said "No, it was the best date I had ever been on." Wow! Geesh! I must've misread something. So we kept hanging out.
But I'll get straight to the point. I love the details though. I kept praying and telling God that I didn't want to lead him on if he wasn't the one for me. But after each prayer we hung out and I exposed more and more of my heart to him with vulnerability of my past and experiences and love for Jesus. I felt more peace that I was right where I was meant to be as he loved every bit of my heart.
This Friday August 10th 2018 will be our 1 year anniversary. We found out back in March that we are expecting our first little baby blessing. The day we told his mom was a big day in my spirit and words coming to pass. So before i go on, i must let you know that his mom Holly was planning to move back into her house we were renting in together in Lafayette and was going to sell her big double wide trailer home in New Ulm.
Anyways, so the day we told her, she was so excited, she just said, "Well then how about I just give you this house with your name on it." As in no payment but as a gift. Instantly!!! My heart and spirit came alive as I remember back in FL a year back that God told me He was going to bless me with a house with no mortgage.
How God is so faithful to us when we keep pressing in and trusting Him and obeying His voice. As the year has passed since Mitch and I have been together and in love :D So much pruning has been done on my heart, but such silent trust in the plan of God for our lives to come to pass. There has been more that the Lord has spoken to me. I have shared all of this with Mitch and he told me to write everything down that God has spoken to me and not to tell him. If it is God it will come to pass without us trying so hard to make it happen.
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